Well, this blog post goes along with a story of mine. This last week I had the opportunity to share with a mindfulness practitioner that does mindfulness workshops in the city where I live in. I really don’t know her very well, but I found in her and in her community a way of thinking about herself and others that I consider rather distorted. This is not something that is just exclusive of her or her teamwork, in fact I carried this particular distortion for part of my life and I know many people that do too in one way or another. By the way, I don’t have anything against her or anyone who carries this distortion, I just want to share what I’ve learned in life and what to me feels like a greater truth.
So let’s start from the beginning. When you look into who you are what do you see? Can you see the unified being that you are? Or do you see separation within you? I mean, do you see an evil-self and a good-self that alternate their duties during the day?
Many people see themselves like this. They see not only the good and the bad within themselves but they also see it in others. They are scared of themselves because of what the evil within can do if it goes out of control and therefore they are scared of others because of this same reason. Many, many people believe that due to their human condition they are condemmed to do wrong even if they don’t mean to. It is from this set of believes that they cary guilt within. They believe they will never be brighter than their human condition allows them and therefore they limit themselves from growth.
Let me tell you right away: in this experience on Earth we are prompt to make mistakes but that doesn’t make us evil, crooked or twisted in any way. It makes us art and a work in progress at the same time…
And why a work in progress? Because you came here to learn. To teach and learn, nothing else. To learn once again who you really are and how it feels to make mistakes, to feel lost and to live it ALL. Because only from all things, you can learn about the WHOLE.
And why art? I invite you to take a look at the things you’ve done that you call mistakes. Why did they happened? Go deeper and deeper into them. If you keep asking why to any answer that comes, you will finally find there is a distortion of love that resides within. While asking why just make sure you aren’t in a victimized mindset. Ask why from a place where you feel centered and in charge of your own life (because in fact you are), from this balanced state you allow growth.
Some examples of distortions of love that you may find within yourself:
- Because I don’t love myself I seek love from others.
- I need aggressiveness to communicate my thoughts because they need to be heard. I’m looking out for the person to whom I’m talking by being aggressive. Or maybe I feel more secure by pushing people away from me and being aggressive.
- Because I love you I’m being overprotective.
- I can’t trust you because I’m scared that I can get hurt. Maybe I don’t trust myself in being strong enough, maybe I don’t trust myself in opening my heart, maybe I don’t feel I deserve the love that I may receive if I open my heart. To sum up this one: I can’t trust you because in one way or another I can’t trust myself. And what is love but a clear exchange of love?
- I give too much to others because I don’t take myself into account. I’m lacking self-love, I put myself last.
To mention some…
So what is in the root of all your darkness? Love.
And in the root of all you light? Love as well.
Here are some quotes that prove my point:
“God formed the first humans in His own image and after His own likeness”.~ Genesis (1:27)
“…God is love” ~ 1 John (4:8)
“The kingdom of God does not come with your careful observation, nor will people say, ‘Here it is’ or ‘There it is,’ because the kingdom of God is within you.” – Luke (17:21)
To go even further, we’ve all heard that God is in all things haven’t we? An Hinduism’s holy text called Bhagavad Gita says Krishna (God) is within all. Here’s a quote:
‘Although the Supersoul [i.e. God within], appears to be divided, He is never divided. He is situated as one.’ ~ Bhagavad Gita Chap 13, verse 17
Buddhists also think “Buddha” is within all. To explain further, Buddha is a name given to “the enlightened one” and therefore anyone who becomes enlightened to their fundamental truth and who becomes consciously connected with the whole, might be called a Buddha.
I’ve cited all of this texts because they are saying something important. There have been many religions or just believes of this sort along all history of humanity and there has to be a reason for it. Now, even though I agree that any of this texts have important messages, I advise anyone who is reading them to use their intuition so that they can identify misleading messages or misunderstandings that may arise. It’s not easy to tell when a text has been manipulated and we have to take a deeper look on things to see what is really true and what is not completely true. This goes not only for this texts but also for any information you might be exposed to. Listen to what resonates with you and to what sounds like a greater truth, that’s it.
Now let that last message sink in: God is in all things. Not in some, not in most, not in the ones he selected, not in some aspects of all things. IN ALL THINGS. I can say this is one of the biggest lessons in life.
Now, I could get really deep into how we are all connected and how there’s only one source of energy that creates all that exists, but I don’t think this post is about that. My intention through this post is to let you be aware that all that is, is love and that every aspect of yourself deserves to be loved. There’s no separation within you. There’s only one source from where everything comes and you have the chance to express it onto the world in whatever way you want, through whatever distortion you have. You are here to do so because you were given the gift of Free Will.
Imagine yourself like a light filter. The source of light (God), which is one for all filters/beings, is of the color white and therefore it contains all colors of existence. We as filters receive that light and we let it shine through us in a specific color. This color is a result of our essence, thoughts, believes, emotions, etc. We were given the chance to express that light even through our distortions. Once we begin to find how love is being expressed through our distortions and through other people’s distortions, we begin to heal. Through healing we stop blocking some light that wasn’t able to shine through us in its purest way (in a way that is more aligned with your particular greatest expression, with your true essence, your true-self) and therefore we become clearer vessels of light.
So how do we love every aspect of ourselves? Recognizing who we are, what all of creation is. By loving ourselves truly, all that we are, we are not only healing ourselves but we are also better serving others to help them heal too.
And do I have a list of steps for this as I usually do?
No. This is a constant processes, an ongoing lesson that we are bound to face every time something we don’t like about ourselves arises. Do you think I was lying when I said life was a fulltime job by itself in my last post?